Monday, August 3, 2015

i'm 24, and i feel it

Last Thursday (February 12th) I celebrated my 24th birthday! I didn't plan to do anything major this year- Ruben and the girls took me to CPK and we ate BBQ chicken pizza and I had a glass of wine, because I was feeling fancy, clearly. After, Ruben and I dropped the girls off with his mom and went to see 50 Shades of Grey. And yes, I read all of the books- TWICE. I was thoroughly disappointed with the film... but I won't get into that. Kudos to Ruben for being such a trooper and sitting through the entire movie, I'm not totally sure he knew what he was getting into.

I don't know if this is normal or if it's just me, but I have never felt much different, let alone older, while celebrating a birthday. Sometimes I'll even tell people that I'm still the same age, instead of a year older. However, I'm sure that's somewhat of a normal thing to do...

This year was different. I actually feel 24. I would even go as far as saying that I act 24. Though, I'm not entirely sure I know how a 24 year old acts. How do they act? Do they have all of their shit together yet? Are they holding down a job that will eventually turn into a career? Do they have a 401k?! I just don't know.

I was telling Ruben that this is the first time I can actually feel myself changing. Trust me, it feels just as weird as it sounds. My interests, preferences and even my food palate has changed. Fast food never sounds appealing, unless of course, it's In-N-Out :P Vegetables and salads have become a necessity with most of my meals, and I have no idea when I started to like drinking wine? If you know me, you know I'm not much of a drinker. I've completely scrapped majority of my wardrobe and replaced it with basic pieces and neutral colors. I've never seen so much black, white and grey in my closet before! Not to mention, my brows have never looked this good :D LOL!

But it's not just physical changes that I've noticed, but mental and emotional as well. I have always, always, always cared about what people thought of me. I'm a people pleaser, that's the Aquarius in me. But lately, I've noticed that not being so important anymore. Not that I just don't give a crap completely, because I always will. But it just doesn't consume me as much as it used to. It doesn't bother me if someone doesn't like me or something that I'm doing. I've learned to make my own decisions based on what I think and feel is right, rather than getting approval from someone else. I almost feel liberated.

I'm at an age where I'm supposed to be discovering myself, trying to find my place in the world, trying to figure out what I want to do for the rest of my life. Becoming a mom at such a young age slowed all of that down for me, I've devoted all of my time and attention to my kids and creating lives for them. Naturally, my life was put on the back burner- and that's okay. But you can't just leave yourself there. Or everyone else will be moving forward and you'll be stuck in the same place you have always been. I'm finally realizing that. It's time for me to start moving forward again and do the things that I want to and should be doing, like going back to school!

Another year, come and gone for me. Here's to my 24th year of life being successful and productive!

Thursday, January 15, 2015

the worst five days ever

Fall and Winter are my favorite times of the year. Cool air, changing leaves, holidays that ensure tons of family time... There's only one downside, flu season.

I wish I could say that we get through flu season without a breeze, but I don't think we ever do. This year has been the worst for us so far. Not only did we get hit with the stomach flu, a few colds, and stuffy noses that don't seem to go away... We also got the real deal, the flu. I can't remember the last time I had the flu. It's freakin terrible. Wanna know what's worse? Getting lice at the same damn time.

let's catch up?

I'm a little disappointed in myself. I had a direction for this blog when I first created it, and I've steered slightly off course and it's definitely not something that I can say I'm proud of. Blogging has always been something I enjoy, but I don't like to feel forced into posting. I've put too much pressure on myself to try and come up with posts that I think people would enjoy reading- yes, it would be nice if people enjoyed reading my blog posts, but I can't say that I always enjoy reading them. Sounds weird, I know.

On our old family blog, I used to just post updates about what was going on with us. Riley and Andi's development when they were babies, family outings and holiday parties, and a crap load of pictures.

I enjoy using this as my outlet for all things Mommy related, but I also want to write posts like I used to. I feel a blog revamp coming soon... o.O

So since this is going to be a catch up post, I hope you have a few snacks handy or maybe a cup of coffee, because this post is about to get lengthy... You've been warned.


Let's start with Riley. The last school update I did on Riley was when she was in a developmental class that she went to 3 days a week when she turned 3. She was there for almost a whole year, and boy did she learn a lot. I didn't even realize how much she actually learned until she got ready to go to preschool this past September and the teachers said that Riley passed more tests on the first day than any of the kids they've ever had attend their school. *que proud Mommy moment* I can't take all of the credit though, the class she was going to before her school now helped A LOT. Riley has only been in preschool for 4 months and she's half way through the kindergarten curriculum. My girl ;) She also loves coming home to do her homework, she practically begs me the second we leave her school. Hoping this habit sticks with her until she graduates from college :D


As far as behavior and social interaction goes, well, everyone has their flaws. Riley is overall a decently behaved kid. I mean she is a 4 year old, GIRL, and she most definitely is growing into her attitude awfully fast. But she also has a very kind heart and likes to see people happy, so she's easily influenced. This is something I can see us working on with her for a while.

This month is when we're supposed to start looking into schools for kinder, though I already have my eye on the one I want her to go to. And it just so happens to be our home school. YAY! I can't believe I'm already getting prepared to sign her up for kindergarten, this is real life guys.


Now for Andi, my little monkey girl. Also known as my little sour patch kid. This little babe is one firecracker of a 2 year old. She is still my loving, cuddly little princess, but she is also the complete opposite when she wants to be. Hence, sour patch kid... "first they're sour, then they're sweet." There are some days I feel like I can't even catch a break because she's such a tiny terror, she gives terrible twos a whole new meaning. But she's also proven to be the most loving kid any of us has ever known, and she's pretty much always happy. I've also never met a more fearless kid- nothing scares this girl! She's starting to speak more clearly these days, making it easier for us to understand her. And her sponge brain is coming in, which means she's picking up on things fast. We haven't started potty training yet, but I'm not sure she's ready at the moment. Though she is recognizing when her diaper is dirty and needs to be changed. We're also still breastfeeding, with no end in sight. I'll admit I'm getting a little tired of the night time feedings and some days I feel drained, but I have to keep reminding myself that I'll never have these moments back once they're gone. I'll never have them back, I'll never have them back...


And I suppose I'll give you guys a short update on myself and Ruben ;)

As most may know, I started a new job back in the summer as a server at Applebee's. It's definitely been a challenge starting a job in an unfamiliar field, but hey, the tips make it worth it sometimes. It's also a nice change of pace from sitting by a telephone for 5 hours by myself. Around the same time as starting my new job, Ruben got promoted to a new position and switched branch locations. Switching locations was the only downer, had he stayed where he was, we would've been working right next to each other.

Other than that, we've just been doing normal family things. We like to spend our free days at Disneyland, which the girls and I will never get tired of. Disney lovers at heart! We can be a little boring sometimes, but hoping to change that with the new year here. Maybe we should set up some family goals?


If you stuck around for all that, holy moly, you're awesome!

Thanks for reading guys, hoping to do more of these so you don't have to read a whole novel next time :P

xoxo

Friday, January 9, 2015

hello, 2015 ✽

Per usual, here comes last-minute Paige, with an overdue blog post for the New Year.

TYPICAL

I think it's safe to say I failed BLOGMAS, and as sad as it sounds, I expected that of myself. Finding the time to write out a blog post every single day with a Tasmanian devil 2 year old, and a preschooler that demands to do homework and eat everything that is edible in my kitchen, is near impossible. 4 1/2 years as a mom, and I still don't have all my shit together.

We spent our NYE at home with the babes. Ruben was getting over being sick, "the worst he's ever felt" he says, and I also didn't feel right leaving the girls behind just to force myself to go out and have a good time while ringing in the New Year with people I don't see too often.

I'm not much of a New Year's resoultions kind of person- I mean, hello, I can't even keep up with blogging for 25 days straight! Let alone keep a resolution for a whole damn year. However, I do want to set a few minor goals- one of them being to go on a family vacation somewhere we haven't gone yet. I'm still brainstorming a couple more, separate post for that later ;)

2014 wasn't a bad year, and it wasn't good. It was just okay. And I'm okay with it just being okay. It could've been a hell of a lot worse. But I am looking forward to 2015, and hoping to make some amazing memories- and a year from now, I hope that I'll be sad to leave 2015 behind.


Happy New Year, everyone! Wishing the best for us all ♥

xoxo

Sunday, December 7, 2014

holly jolly holiday TAG 2 ❅ BLOGMAS, day 5

I decided to do a fun little post for today, I can't escape VLOGMAS without a TAG, or maybe two ;)



The Holly Jolly Holiday Tag 2

1. Do you start your Christmas shopping on Black Friday or wait until the last-minute?
I do a little bit of both- I love Black Friday shopping, I've braved the crowds for the past 4-5 years. However, it changed this year, when I realized that I always came out of shopping with things only for me!? And I almost always wait until Christmas Day to snag a gift card for someone that I might've forgotten about. Whoopsie :P

2. If you could be in any Christmas movie what would it be?
Home Alone! Or Elf, because Will Ferrel is hilarious. And I <3 Zoeey Deschanel

3. Which do you like better: Christmas Eve or Christmas Day?
Christmas Eve! Christmas Day is always a little sad, knowing that it's the last day. 

4. When does your family put up your Christmas tree and who decorates it?
Last year I had the tree up before December. This year, is a different story. I was hoping to put it up in the beginning of December, but days keep passing and it's still not up :(  

5. White lights or colored lights?
Both! But I do like the look of white lights on the tree so the ornaments and the colored lights don't blend together. 

6. Are you guilty of peeking at your presents or do you like the surprise?
I've peeked before when I was younger, but I always like surprises :)

7. Would you rather live in a gingerbread house or in Santa’s Workshop?
Santa's Workshop! I think I would enjoy present coordinating :)

8. Tell us your Christmas Eve traditions!
Always spent with my mom's side of the family, and now with Ruben's family, we go to his mom's house after. Everyone else is Christmas Day! 

9. If you could be under the mistletoe with anyone who would it be?
Any 3 of my babes, duh! 

10. What tops your tree?
We currently don't have much of a topper ;( 

11. Can you name the 12 days of Christmas?
Partridge in a pear tree, 2 turtle doves, 3 French hens, 4 collie birds, 5 golden rings, 6 geese a laying, 7 swans a swimming, 8 maids a milking, 9 ladies dancing, and then I can't remember the order of the last 3. SO CLOSE!

12. Have you ever gone Christmas caroling?
Yes! But not door to door, necessarily. It was when I was younger and in Camp Fire. 

13. Do you countdown to Christmas? If so, how many days are left?
Who doesn't!?! 18 days left! 

14. What are some foods and treats you can count on having every holiday season? 
Tamales, always tamales. 

15. How has Christmas kept its magic for you as you’ve grown older?
Since having kids Christmas has become an even more magical time. I love seeing Riley and Andi's faces light up when they're ripping apart the nicely wrapped paper that I spent so much time on. ;) 

Feel free to join in on the fun! If you answer these question on your blog, leave the link so I can go check them out! I would love to see your answers!

I'm also tagging: Katie, Shannon, Kelly, Vanessa and Jessicca.

THE QUESTIONS!
1. Do you start your Christmas shopping on Black Friday or wait until the last-minute?
2. If you could be in any Christmas movie what would it be?
3. Which do you like better: Christmas Eve or Christmas Day?
4. When does your family put up your Christmas tree and who decorates it?
5. White lights or colored lights?
6. Are you guilty of peeking at your presents or do you like the surprise?
7. Would you rather live in a gingerbread house or in Santa’s Workshop?
8. Tell us your Christmas Eve traditions!
9. If you could be under the mistletoe with anyone who would it be?
10. What tops your tree?
11. Can you name the 12 days of Christmas?
12. Have you ever gone Christmas caroling?
13. Do you countdown to Christmas? If so, how many days are left?
14. What are some foods and treats you can count on having every holiday season?
15. How has Christmas kept its magic for you as you’ve grown older?



Happy week to all you babes!

xoxo,
P

our first family Christmas picture ❅ BLOGMAS, day 4

 
We're not one of those families that have family pictures taken every year for Christmas. Though it would be nice, it doesn't always happen.

Today I was browsing my old pictures on my phone and came across a picture of Ruben, Riley and I from our very 1st Christmas together! We took them at a local JC Penny's, and to my surprise, they came out super cute! Especially the ones of just Riley. 

 Hope enjoyed those Christmas throwbacks, check back soon for the ones we're planning to take for this year!


xoxo,
P

Thursday, December 4, 2014

how being a mom has changed Christmas ❅ BLOGMAS, day 3


Before I had Riley and Andi, I always used Christmas as an opportunity to ask "Santa" for things that I had been really wanting... most of the time those things turned out to be pretty pricey. But I mean, that's a normal response when you're a teenager, isn't it? 

It's crazy how the holidays change once you become a parent and it's your turn to play Santa.